Hello World!
I’m excited. Nervous, a bit tentative, rather unsure, but excited.
About a year ago, I suddenly felt one day that I should start a blog. It was a random thought; not something I’d considered before. A name dropped into my mind – a random name, and I loved it. I Googled it, just to make sure that it wasn’t already taken. And it was. Hmm, maybe the idea wasn’t as inspired as I’d thought, I was clearly just being silly. I mean, who would want to read what I have to say anyway? In fact, what would I say?? I am insignificant, boring, not cool enough, have no interest in becoming an “influencer”, and am just a very ordinary human being.
When I say I don’t want to be an “influencer”, please don’t get me wrong. I want to have influence, I want to impact people’s lives for the better, I want to share positive, encouraging thoughts – God knows we need more of it! All I mean is, I have no interest in doing make-up tutorials and will NOT have an Insta feed that’s full of pics of me living it up, being beautiful and carefree and all put together. I’m just not that person. (P.S mad respect to all the influencers who get that right.)
I don’t know exactly what content will be covered on my blog or how I would describe it. What I do know, is that I want it to be completely honest – vulnerable even.
As I am on a journey of learning to take my thoughts captive (more on that later in a separate post), I’m going to say it as it comes, and then correct myself until I find words that I feel are healthier options, but still true. Editing is naturally part of the writing process, but rather unconventionally, I’m not going to hide my edits. I’m going to lay it all out there – mainly as an exercise for myself to be able to see trends in my thought patterns and the words that I use, and to be able to measure a decrease (hopefully) in the need to self-correct as I practise this. Who knows, maybe it will even challenge you to think about the words that you use…
Back to the beginning.
After I dismissed the thought of starting a blog a year ago, a friend messaged me earlier this week to say that while praying for me she felt that I need to start a blog. “Oi, here we go again,” I thought.
Well, I am on “Rona” lockdown and need to find something constructive to do – because work has dried up (eek $$$??), the kids are driving me crazy and I do NOT feel like doing the ironing, spring cleaning cupboards, or mending the pile of clothes with buttons that need to be sewn, hems that need to be stitched or pants that need to be adjusted (thanks to comfort-eating, ugh). So, I guess I’ll do this instead and see where it goes.
Being a serial [insert recovering] procrastinator WITH ADD, I really struggle to get going with things when I don’t feel up to it. I just cannot bring myself to do it. But when I do feel like doing something, there’s absolutely NO stopping me. This morning, I woke up wanting to start a blog. And that’s why I’m excited.